bon voyage Robert Anton Wilson and thanks for your support!

just got the information from R.U. Sirius. Robert Anton Wilson, one of the big heroes, "Defies Medical Experts and leaves his body @4:50 AM on binary date 01/11. All Hail Eris!"

HERE IS MY OWN RAW STORY: on xmas 2001, at a party in his house, joi ito gave me Robert Anton Wilson's "COSMIC TRIGGER". i was in the worst shape ever and he helped me to discover a new dimension of reality without selling me some silly washing powder, truth or another religion. joi was the only guy i trusted when it came to the problem i had ... everybody else i knew was not experienced with being involved in crazy mind games and being exposed in public in the way i was at this moment. for me it is still magic that i got this book from joi at this point in my life.

BACKGROUND: for an art show with etoy i had the chance to esape to japan for 3 months. i was completly wrecked and tried to ignore the release of harper collins' "leaving reality behind" book that hurt me more than anything else before. the book about "my life", etoy and TOYWAR was written by a former friend of mine, regula bochsler. i considered her one of the 12 most important people in my life and blindly trusted her. for me to read the final draft of the script was a new dimension of human distraction! after working for a year with etoy (incl. full access to our archive, work and friends) the authors probably got under commercial pressure and started to mix and twist facts to get the plot they needed. among lots of dirty little stories the book limited female TOYWAR-HEROES like our CTO etoy.MONOROM or the transsexual performer COCO to my groupies and described my partners as naive acolytes but instead totally over pomoted the old etoy.BOY-GROUP that was history long before TOYWAR even started. COCO's tragic suicide was just another hype for the story and on top of all this i was called "heinrich", a fucked up devil who picked linz - the cultural capital of adolf hitler - to launch his international career as a greedy artist. the last draft (i never read the final book) compared me with eToys CEO Toby Lenk and at the end of the story declared both players, (etoy and eToys Inc.) dead to round off the perfect dot-com drama. but - worst of all - my former friend regula started to heat up fights among old and new etoy.AGENTS by forwarding slanderous private email messages that a former etoy.AGENT recovered from an internal backup. and a hacked email-server revealed facts of how regula was manipulated. a climate of paranoia, manipulation and madness took over. there was no chance to call for facts or fairness in this context: "LEAVING REALITY BEHIND" - the slogan etoy created years earlier - turned into a media nightmare that ended badly for everybody: the book that we all worked for became the subject of a court case (it got corrected a bit ... but still sucked so etoy could not promote it). the result was an emotional and financial disaster (the book did not sell at all). at the same time my former etoy partner and arch enemy hans bernhard spent 3 months in a psychiatric hospital after he slit his own scalp to write "etoy" with blood on the wall of his hotel room in south africa. he was convinced that someone planted a bomb in his head ... IT WAS THE PERFECTLY DESIGNED HORROR TRIP. i lost trust in everything for a while and felt 100% incapable to explain anybody why this was so painfull and not just another great milestone in the life of a media hacker. reality as i knew it fell apart in tokyo.

it was the perfect moment for a RAW-DATA update of my operating system!

today - after light years of travelling (with what was left of the dot-com speed) and lots of debugging, it all looks like a few surreal moves in a very complicated and crazy role play.

--> WOW! i'm still in the game and operational. even better: thanks to the upgrade i consider myself on a higher level and i'm glad that amazing guys like joi and wilson were around to coach me just when i needed them most.

i just ask myself: how do they do this? ... detecting wasted and confused artists with such precision? is there maybe a secret plan or a higher intelligence leading them? ... hmmmm then hans probably really has a bomb in his head as he said. fuuuuuuck!!!! what a game ;-)
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jrgd @ 12.01.2007 17:47 CET
wow - you should definitely write that book yourself.
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